Books by Mary Louder, DO
Anatomy of a Soul’s Calling
Becoming the Physician Healer I Was Meant to Be
A memoir by Mary Louder, DO
What happens when a physician dares to follow the whispers of her soul—through trauma, medicine, mystery, and meaning?
In Anatomy of a Soul’s Calling, Dr. Mary Louder invites you on a courageous and deeply human journey. Part memoir, part medicine story, this book traces her transformation from conventionally trained doctor to integrative healer rooted in spirit, science, and self-reclamation.
With wit, wisdom, and unapologetic honesty, Mary unpacks a life lived on the edge of knowing—through loss, love, shamanic encounters, and clinical awakenings. This is a book for seekers, healers, and anyone longing to remember who they truly are.
You don’t have to be a doctor to resonate. You just have to be human.
Because healing isn’t a destination—it’s a return to yourself.
“Perhaps you’ve heard of me…”
That’s how I opened a childhood writing assignment.
And now, decades (and lifetimes) later, I’ve written the story I was always meant to share.
Welcome. I’m Dr. Mary Louder, DO.
This book is not just a memoir—it’s a story of soul, spirit, medicine, and coming home to one’s self.
In Anatomy of a Soul’s Calling, I share the winding, sometimes wild journey of how I became a physician healer—not just in title, but in essence. It’s a love story between medicine and meaning. Between the body and the soul. Between this world and the unseen.
Praise for Anatomy of a Soul’s Calling
“Mary wisely relocates medicine as a relationship not only between doctor and patient but within you as a person finding a deep connection back to yourself.”
“A bridge between physician and shaman... invites us to find our story as we read hers.”
“I have had the privilege of knowing Dr. Mary Louder for over thirty years, and reading her memoir felt like being invited into the deeper story behind a life I have long admired. Anatomy of a Soul’s Calling is a beautifully woven tapestry of story, wisdom, and lived experience. With honesty and grace, she shares a journey marked by doubt, revelation, and transformation—always pointing us toward the freedom of living authentically and courageously. This is a book of medicine and memoir, heart and practice, written with the passion of a healer and the vision of a mystic.”
“This book is a ceremony, a wholeness-story, and a soul-centered Camino. Trauma-sensitive, deeply human, and medically astute—you’ll learn on many levels as you laugh and sometimes cry with the author. Rarely do we see inside the archetype of the Wounded Healer with such humility. I’ve long respected Dr. Louder as a physician, and now even more so as a holistic practitioner whose willingness to share her own journey invites us all to marvel at the sacred stories we are living. This book whispers: there is more healing, more joy, and more depth of the Divine to experience for us all.”
“Reading this felt like being gently walked home by someone who’s been through it and stayed soft.”
“This book is a beautiful blend of wit, wisdom, and deep humanity. Dr. Mary Louder takes us through her life, her journey through medical school, and the evolution of her holistic practice with honesty, humor, and insight. I laughed, teared up, and found myself reflecting on my own life throughout. It’s not just a story of becoming a doctor—it’s about becoming whole. Truly inspiring.”
“Anatomy of a Soul’s Calling is a revelation—heartfelt, insightful, and refreshingly real. Dr. Mary Louder has written a memoir infused with humor, courage, and transparent self-awareness that never drifts into indulgence. Instead, it invites you in, offering companionship, wisdom, and grace.
This is a book for anyone—especially women—who have ever felt ‘othered’ or sensed a deeper calling but lacked support to follow it. With candor and compassion, Dr. Louder shares her journey of becoming not just a doctor, but a healer. And in doing so, she gives us permission: to trust ourselves, to question what we’ve been taught, and to walk our own way—even when the road is lonely or unclear.
I laughed, nodded, underlined, and felt seen. This is one of those rare books you keep close—dog-eared, marked with truth bombs, and returned to again and again. Inspiring, empowering, and entertaining. Buy this book. You won’t regret it.”
What’s Inside the Book?
Inside, you’ll find:
Unexpected turning points, trauma, and transformation
A soulful look at what it means to truly heal—from the inside out
Reflections on medicine, mysticism, and reclaiming our whole selves
Stories that may feel a little like your own
Whether you're a fellow healer, a seeker, or someone navigating your own return to wholeness, this book was written with you in mind.
Hosting a Book Club or Reading Circle?
Download the Book Club Companion eBooklet, featuring:
Soulful discussion prompts
Reflection questions
Practices and journaling suggestions
A peek behind the scenes of the writing journey
Marking the path. Holding the story. Guiding the soul.
Cairn Publishing House was born from the same place all true callings arise—from the quiet tug of something sacred asking to be seen. Founded by Dr. Mary Louder, DO, as a vessel to birth her memoir Anatomy of a Soul’s Calling, this imprint is a tribute to the soul-mapped journey of storytelling. Like cairn stones that mark the path and guide the way through life’s journey, each book we publish stands as a guidepost—honoring the lived, the loved, and the deeply learned. Cairn Publishing House exists to steward soul-guided stories into the world with reverence, resilience, and the occasional splash of irreverent wit. This is just the beginning.
If you’ve ever questioned the path you were on… or sensed your soul nudging you toward something deeper…
This book is for you.
The truth is—Anatomy of a Soul’s Calling isn’t just about me.
Yes, it holds my story… but beneath the surface, it’s about all of us:
The parts of ourselves we’ve left behind.
The unexpected teachers.
The moments when we finally listen to what life has been trying to say.
As you read, you may find yourself remembering chapters of your own life you thought were closed—or misunderstood.
If you’re ready to find your medicine within the pages of mine, pre-order below. Anatomy of a Soul’s Calling releases September 23, 2025.